Wednesday, September 12, 2012



"then we'll turn it up and play a little faster"  - the academy is

The palm trees above are what I grew up looking at and I promised them I would be back, this time I mean it.....btw there are no fucking suburban thrills - just tawdry boring nothingness....

I know I quote all kinds of random song lyrics that mean nothing to anyone but me - well get ready for more if you plan on reading my blog - today's theme is best described by Panic at the Disco - "Things are shaping up to be pretty odd...."  

ugghhhh I just went through this hellish year, I look completely fucked up and feel even worse than that or who knows maybe vice versa?  Suffice to say it sucks, the last time though I got through an even more hellish time by hmmm masses of writing and shots of turned out kinda golden but still breakable enough that it didnt last long at all - it was another of my "let's play pretend" phases that weren't quite as shimmering as I would have wished....

Well I have noticed a pattern when things get that bad something really odd or a combination of things happen to snap it out.....must be more of the creative writing I added in the hall of records, damn at this rate if I just write that down I make millions....LOL

The latest pretty odd happened in the way of a recent friend I made online - very muse person.   I don't know why but it made me click out of the what fresh hell is this mode.....Suddenly I am writing Susan's story again, planning my next multi media  masterpiece and most importantly working hard at not looking  and feeling so completely destroyed.  Personally I think it is because I wrote in people who were important in past lives, I don't know but I know everytime I meet one, they are always the ones that have some sort of cosmic connection that inspires me. 

 "How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget.. you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes
Initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me" - Stone Sour

So anyway thought I would tell whoever the hell is reading this and apparently I have no idea why anyone would but according to the stats they do - yeah well Susans back - maybe this time to stay....

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